Those 4 words never sounded so good
我从未感觉这几个字这样动听
til the June morning
直到一个6月的早晨
in my moms hospital room.
在妈妈的病房里
It began when my mother was admitted to the hospital
事情的开始是如此的，我妈妈要住院
for a really bad infection in her bladder.
由于膀胱有紧急的感染
It was November 21
那是11月21日
when they called us to her hospital room
医院把大家一家人叫到妈妈的病房里
to tell us my mom had a mass tumor1
告诉大家，妈妈长了一个肿块肿瘤
it was big in her stomach
在她的胃里，面积非常大
and it was malignant2.
是个恶性肿瘤
They went over a couple of options
他们列出了几种治疗策略
but all I heard was MDAnderson amp; biopsy.
我却只听到了癌症中心和活体检查
That same night at about 2 a.m.
当天夜里，凌晨两点钟的时候
my mom got dressed
我妈妈穿着打扮整齐
called my stepdad
叫上我的继父
and walked out of that hospital,
两人走出了医院
she wanted to go home.
她想要回家
The next morning
第二天早上
we went to talk to the surgeon
大家去找大夫谈话
to find out what does this mean,
去询问妈妈昨晚的举动有什么用意
how long does she have by refusing treatment
她如此拒绝治疗，还剩下多少日子
amp; he said 15 days
他说，大概半个月
maybe less.
也会更少
I was so scared
我害怕极了
I couldnt accept losing my mom
我不可以承受失去妈妈的痛苦
my only parent
双亲里我只剩下她了
since dad died when I was 5 yrs old.
由于我5岁的时候爸爸就去世了
My stepdad was an ok kinda person
我的继父是一个不冷不热的人
just not involved with our lives growing.
在大家成长过程中，都没管过大家
So 15 days,
所以，还有半个月
I had
这就是我所有些全部
to pray, to beg, to cry,
我只有这类时间去祈祷，去乞求，去痛哭流涕
to spend time with my mom.
去与妈妈共度
I didnt judge her decision
我没职责她舍弃治疗的决定
shes my mom
她是我的妈妈
she has earned the right to decide what she wants.
她有权决定自己想要的是什么
My siblings3 didnt see it that way
我的兄弟姐妹们并不如此想
but really what can you do.
可是你能如何做呢
I asked everyone I came in contact with
我对自己能联系上的每个人都发出了请求
if they could say wish good luck for my mom,
我问他们能否祝我妈妈好运
I mean everyone.
我说的是所有人
The day came and went
日子一每天过去
and she did sleep a lot
她确实睡得不少
but my stepdad says she seems ok,
但继父说，她看着状况还很好
when Id go visit her
当我去看望她的时候
I would just sit and stare at her
我坐在那里，紧紧的盯着她
I imagine she probably felt like a specimen4 under a microscope
我想，她大概感觉自己就像是显微镜下面的一个标本
because shed just cough
由于，她只是喝水呛了一下
and all heads turned to her glasses of water
所有人都看向她手中的水杯
in every direction
从每个方向看着她
my poor mom.
我可怜的母亲
Then 7 months later
7个月过后
she ends up back in hospital
她又住进了医院
because her bladder is hurting real bad.
由于她的膀胱疼的非常厉害
I remember sitting there
我记得自己坐在那里
just me and my granddaughter
只有我和我的小孙女
because she really wanted to visit her G.G.Ma
由于她非常想看望一下她的曾祖母
and I watched her do her crossword5 puzzle
我看着她玩字谜
trying to sneak6 in a picture here and there.
设法在这里那里拼出一个图案来
The oncologist walks in the room
大夫走进病房
asks my mom how she feeling
问我妈妈感觉怎么样
she says I feel fine
她说，我感觉挺好的
can I go home now?
今天我能回家了吗
The Dr then says
大夫说
im sorry
实在抱歉
but I cannot be your doctor
可是，我没法给你看病
so I cannot make that decision.
所以，我也不可以决定你何时出院
She looks confused
妈妈一脸的疑惑
Im stunned7
我也感到十分惊讶
so I asked what did my mom do now?
于是问道，我母亲又做了哪些
He smiled
大夫笑了笑
and looked my mom straight in her eyes
直直的看着妈妈的双眼
he says Im a cancer doctor
他说，我是一个肿瘤大夫
since all your tests came back clear
你的结果都很好
I cannot be in charge of your care.
我不可以再掌管你的健康问题了
Im looking at him
我定定的看着大夫
wide eyed big goofy smile
双目圆瞪，一脸傻笑
and as I turned to see my moms reaction
我转过头去看妈妈的反应
she picks up her crossword puzzle
妈妈拿起我女儿的字谜游戏
says as casual8 as can be
用最随便的语气说
See I told you I wasnt sick!
看吧，都告诉你了，我没病！
I could only manage to say
我一时百感交集，只能说出话一句
yup you sure did mom.
嗯呐，你确实说过，母亲
That was 2 and a half years ago
这是两年半之前的事情
and shes still mouthier as ever
她还和平常一样巧言善辩
but I went and thanked everyone
我向所有些人都道谢了
because I truly witnessed a miracle9 first hand.
由于我真的亲眼见证了一个奇迹
